sadness devours me, consuming my happiness until i'm empty
Basically I feel hopeless about 80% of the time. I used to be able to distract myself from it, but it's becoming more difficult as time passes. Bills pile up, feelings get hurt, and I begin disappointing people whom I care about. Medication helps for the first few hours of the day, but the afternoon gets dark pretty fast. Maybe someday I'll not feel this way.
Sweet Dr. Pepper's tasty tons of calories add to my spare tire.
I've been trying to lose weight for quite a while now. Only recently have I had any success. One of the most daunting obstacles in my way is my apparent addiction to full sugar drinks like Dr. Pepper. The 250 calories per bottle, not to mention the price tag of at least $1.25/day ($37.50/month) are the main reason I stay fat and poor. I wish I could quit you...
You are a giant, rudely stomping everything. Nobody likes you. ______________________
We all know a person like this. Someone who feels entitled to everything and treats everyone else like they're servants. They consume and destroy without ever considering anyone but themselves. The worst thing about this type of person is that they nearly always feel victimized by others. I'm no expert on irony, but I think this applies.
Once, I loved music. Now it seems lost in the din of life's symphony. ______________________ When I was young, music was very important to me. I constantly had to have music playing, whether I was working, driving, walking or having sex. I really identified with the lyrics and the sounds of the songs made me have strong emotional reactions. I can't believe how much of an effect that it had on me in many ways. These days, however, I don't really take much time for music. Occasionally I'll get in the mood to listen, but I mainly play things I liked back when I loved music. It's not that I think today's music is crap, like some old fart (which I am). Like so many people in the world, I just don't care enough to get to know it. I'm busy. I'm stressed. And I find it more and more difficult to relate to any of the poetry I hear in music, even in the songs I used to love.
I have lived my life Worrying about others It's time to let go _________________ Lots of people are constantly stressed about a multitude of things. For some it's work, for others it's relationships, and these are just two of the stress points in most people's lives. Those things are constant. We have to work and we have to have relationships. One stress point that most of us have (that we could all do without) is how we worry about what others think of us. "Oh no, I said something embarassing!" "I can't go up there and dance, someone might think I look stupid." "I can't possibly ask her/him out. If she/he said no, then people would think I'm a loser." The truth is, yes. There are plenty of judgmental pricks out there who are so insecure that they look down on others to make themselves feel better. What we need to ask ourselves is this. "Should we care what they think?" So you said something embarrassing. It's not the end of the world. In fact, the only reason it's embarrassing is that you CARE what those pricks think. Just laugh with the rest of the crowd. We all mess up and say dumb things. Worrying about what others think just holds us back and hurts ourselves. It keeps us from leading happy lives and makes us feel trapped and worthless. I say these things because I see that they are true. I am currently in the process of TRYING to forget the pricks. It may be a long process, because letting go of these old habits can be difficult. I will get there. I don't want to live my life for them. I want to live my life for me.